Sometimes I don’t think if I can be a success person in the
future, why??? Cz I never study in
serious way, I just play, imagine, and
watch a lot. I want to be a success but I cannot control my brain to think hard
to find my topic for doing my research. I want to be a success person but I just
think to be happy so just do what it can make me happy. Until now I just confuse
about my dream, sometimes I just want to live like this, but sometimes I want
to be a rich person and become a successful buisnes women. I want to go abroad,
London, new york, south korea, japan, france, makkah, dubai and many countries
that I want to really go there. Honestly I never think if in the future I decide
English as my major in universities, cz I know I don’t really like English and
don’t have skill to do that, I just want to learn and speak English fluently. But
I never thought if I want to deep to learn it, especially to become an English teacher,
oh it’s just a dream to me. It is what make me worried, when I in senior high
school I never think seriously what kind of study that I want to really choose or
take to my future.. I just keep to play, watch, and imagine. So what I worried
until now is that. For now on I just study with all that I have in my self,
just still lazy to deep in learn English, there is no motivation in my self, I don’t
now why I become like this. I worry if I can’t finish my study, I don’t want to
make my parents sad because of me, but until no I just a lazy students who just
keep enjoying my life without study hard, think hard. I like a dream I just
keep to imagine what I want to do in the future. I want to meet my idol, ahh I just
fall in love to Krystal.. I know what I do is wrong way, ah no its not totally wrong
I just like a fans who want to meet her idol. So when I wake up in the morning
or afternoon, or before to sleep, I just keep to imagine her and hear her song.
That I what I do in this week. I surrounding my self into high dream, and I can’t
move to left that thought. I lost my self. If people see me they will think I am
fine and a good girl and there is no something wrong or happen to me, but if
they know that I’m now is just a girl who lost her mind.
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